Jeg får ikke puste, sitter her å vræler ut alt jeg har av latter og luft i lungene!! Hoster som en som har kols, høres ut som en heks med en god ond plan.
Jeg tror jeg detter om. Denne gifen ''made my day''. Ok. Nå skal jeg ut å kjøpe antrekk til i morgen. SKyter meg selv om jeg ikke finner noe.
Ser ut som jeg viser frem klokka, men jeg gjør faktisk ikke det. Whatever, liker den jeg. Hahaha.
Ligger i senga og drømmer meg bort om framtiden, den ser ganske lys ut, ganske så fin.
Det kiler i magen, kjenner det er en vill fest i nervene mine. Så gira på framtiden. Kan den ikke bare komme nå? Worth the wait. Skuldrene senker seg ned, lungene har det godt nå kan jeg puste. Og det føles så godt, jeg trekker inn pusten og puster ut igjen og kjenner at ingenting står i veien for det. Dette er godt. Hvorfor er det ikke slikt hverdag? Pytt pytt, la meg nyte denne herlige stunden. Nå må jeg legge meg. Haha, skjer ikke.. Jo. Nei, litt til. Livet skulle vært slik hverdag. Nei, da hadde jeg ikke hatt gleden av å ha en flott dag. Nei, jeg må faktisk legge meg. For jeg vet jeg ikke er like glad halv seks på morningen som nå, kommer til å måtte dra meg langs gulvet inn til badet i morgen. Stresse litt mer en vanligere for jeg vet jeg ikke våkner når alarmen ringer. Nå skal jeg ta meg en god lang dusj, så kryper jeg som til sengs som en liten gnom som jeg er. Haha, selvironi til hundre. That's the shit i like.
God natt, Gloriosa.
Have you ever tried to see the world in perspective? And then see how far away you can go? Think of the ocean, heaven and this earth. Then try to go further. Realize that there are other planets out there, Even other galaxies. That we are in no control over. We are unknown. Can you see how big it is and how much you don`t have a clue about?Then it`s funny to see how small the ocean, heaven and this earth is compared to the rest. But more importantly yourself. No matter what way we may choose for ourselves. Remember we are all 100% worthy,
I?ve learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow. I?ve learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights. I?ve learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you?ll miss them when they?re gone from your life. I?ve learned that making a ?living? is not the same thing as making a ?life.? I?ve learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance. I?ve learned that you shouldn?t go through life with a catcher?s mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw something back. I?ve learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision. I?ve learned that even when I have pains, I don?t have to be one. I?ve learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back. I?ve learned that I still have a lot to learn. I?ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.
when a person has been hurt in the past by the one you once love, admired, basically the one person you looked up to and never in a million year would thought that person will ever hurt you it becomes extremely hard to let go of the past of the?? hurt??, but when you first learn to do so you get a feeling of relief a feeling of being free. the hurt is so massive that one is occasionally afraid of letting people in your life because you?re scared of the the feeling of getting you heart broken again, so what do you do in situations such as this. Well many choose to block their heart and become ice queens/zombie with no feeling whatsoever i guess it?s the best way of dealing with a broken heart isn?t it cause then one can really concentrate on significant things, specific areas of ones life.In a way you can start living again but the hurt and the pain will always lurk until one day you can?t handle it anymore and all you can do is cry, some refuses to cry but it is okay to cry now and then everyone cries even heaven itself cries. But i do not think it?s wise to hide feelings such as these it?s better to confront the person who?s crush your heart instead of letting it go cause in the future you will always look back and regret what you did not do.
I like drinking coffee alone, and reading alone. I like riding the bus alone, and walking home alone. I like eating alone, and listening to music alone. It gives me time to think, and set my mind free. But when I see a mother with her child, a girl with her lover, or a friend laughing with their best friend, I realize that even though I like being alone, I don?t fancy being lonely. The sky is beautiful, but the people are sad. I just need someone who won?t run away.
//Medicine alleviate the sickness
Liquid affix and it comes with a cost
Wake up, cold sweat, scratching, itching
Trying to escape the skin that barely fit him
I've seen my people's dreams die
I've seen what they can be denied
And weeds not a drug - that's denial
Groundhog Day, life repeat each time
I've seen oxycontin take three lives
I grew up with them
We used to chief dimes
I've seen cocaine bring out the demons inside
Cheating and lying
Friendship cease, no peace in the mind
Stealing and taking anything to fix the pieces inside
Broken, hopeless, headed nowhere
Only motivation for what the dealer's supplying
That rush, that drug, that dope
Those pills, that crumb, that roach
Thinking I would never do that, not that drug
And growing up nobody ever does
Until you're stuck
Looking in the mirror like I can't believe what I've become
Swore I was going to be someone
And growing up everyone always does
We sell our dreams and our potential
To escape through that buzz
Just keep me up.//
He said it all. Hope you like the song.
If I open up my eyes
I can see the storm, I can see the sky
I can see the darkness, flashing lights
All my fears gone tonight
Let me stay, I'm lost in paradise